Thread:Кримера/@comment-26356785-20161110053351/@comment-8695373-20161110080713

I don't know what "DSBR" is, my sickness was multi-drug-resistant tuberculosis (which is also called "consumption", which I like better, since it's simpler). It can't be completely cured, so, speaking simply, the harmful bacteria were sealed in my lungs with calcium, so I'm not contagious and it doesn't destroy my body further, but if I'll get infected with it once more, it will be incurable, and I'll die.

What I suffer from now are side effects from all the medication I took, which will remain with me for the rest of my life. My digestive system is all messed up, so I'm getting food poisoning all the time and I got so used to nausea that I can just brush it off and continue with my daily activities. Vomiting still feels bad though, one just can't get used to it.

What's way worse is that my memory also got affected. I can't remember anything, any event that happened with me. Though, there are few instances when I know what happened, I know what I felt when it happened, I know what emotions other people displayed, I know what led to these events, and what happened after them, but I just can't recall them. Still, I remember only the recent stuff, and have to learn something that I should know. But this doesn't apply to "knowledge" and stuff like that, only to "memories". For example, I've learnt in my childhood how to get to our nearby tourist attraction (an ancient Greek town, very pretty), and even though I haven't been there for years, I still know how to get there. I also have some problems with memorizing stuff, but it's not that bad. Well, at least I avoided depression, which is also a side effect of a drug that caused it.

The worst side effect though, is partial hearing loss. There is a constant noise in my head, like hissing, and whistling, and ringing... Do you remember old tape recorders? When the sound on a tape is over, but the tape still plays, some kind of noise can be heard. I hear something similar, but louder, and with tiny bells ringing (and yes, I can hear Code: Embryo's main menu background sounds only when I turn the volume on my headphones to maximum). And it gets even more louder when I'm tired, or sick, or have a headache... And this noise also prevents me from hearing whispers.

There were other side effects, like the one that prevented me from bending my knees, but they are gone, or maybe I'm just so used to them I don't even notice them anymore. But the sickness also left something nasty, for example, I can't run for too long. Well, physically I can, but it's forbidden, because my lungs are weak.

Can someone help me? I doubt it. Well, having someone by my side who can tell me what other people are saying when I can't hear them properly, that would be nice...